What made you stop being an addict?

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

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I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

And I can also talk to them now.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

When a dog smells another dog’s poo or wee, do they then remember that scent for when they smell it again, or even further know which dog they are smelling if they know the dog?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

What is the worst name in Tolkien’s legendarium (meaning and look)?

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

Why are American women so ugly nowadays?

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

What made you recently say to yourself, “Wait. Really?”

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

I did it in my administrator's office.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

Why does Boko Haram attack its own Muslims?

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

What should you do if a police officer comes to your house and asks for someone who doesn't live there anymore?

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

What is the best way to get revenge on people who hurt you?

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Can one still satisfy the desires of Black women with a more discreet endowment?"?

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

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All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Read that again ☝️

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

Why are North Carolina Democrats against Mark Robinson? He is the modern Martin Luther King Jr. and the Democrats are being stupid for not voting him.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

This was February 2019.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

Just keep trying

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.